As I make my way to the polling place to cast my vote in what has got to be the most fucked up election… possibly ever.
I feel like I am a bona fide grown-up. In all the ways that I don’t want to be.
Like many utopian millennial’s, I rooted for Bernie. And my little idealistic heart was broken when Hillary took the ticket. I thought there was no way we would end up with Trump as a real, viable, presidential candidate. But here we are. And for the last several months I have been struggling with coming to terms with “voting for the best OPTION” instead of “voting for who I want to be president” (full use of air quotes intended).
BUT I HAVE HAD AN EPIPHANY.
Like many of the utopian millennial’s I like to think that the world could be amazing and fair and balanced, that many of our society’s pitfalls could be changed and our country could be rad, I’m not the only one, a lot of my friends feel the same way. But what I have been missing up until this point- here. today. is the fact that it’s unrealistic.
I know that sounds harsh and I know that some of my homie’s are going to dispute that claim and that’s fair. But the truth is that as much as a utopian world would be better and would solve all the problems and in my mind would be the ideal situation, that is not the country nor the world that I live in. I do not have the luxury of voting for who I really “want” to be president. I have to vote for who I truly feel is the best option, out of the two options I have.
As I go to the polls to cast my vote for a woman that I have believed in since I was a little girl. But whom in the meantime has become a political power-house. Hillary has changed in the last 20 years as much as I have changed in the last 20 years. And mind you 20 years ago I was just beginning puberty. Yeah.
I respect Hillary. I know she will do a good job, and I like to think that she will be a great President. I love that my son is going with me to cast my vote in this ridiculous and historic election, and that he could see our first female President. But I still wish it was Bernie I was voting for.
Angelique Dagger 